At night
The room is dark. My mind is racing but I can’t keep one thought on track
Does he like me, Am I going to get fired, Will I get demoted and have to take a pay cut, Can I really meet Robbie Williams in a coffee shop when I don’t drink coffee and live in NJ, why can’t I meet him, does he like me.
Over and over the thoughts run around, never staying put, never staying for more then a second.
When I try to turn my brain off, I sit up and say, shut up shut up shut up. It’s 1 am time to sleep.
But sleep alludes me I think but next think I know it’s 3 am and I know I wasn’t awake.
Again I turn off my brain. Then it’s 9 am
It’s blog reading time and time to turn on my brain again.
Looking back
I was reading the blogs and read over at Junk Food 4 The Soul about how she is going to remember this year.
It made me think. How will I remember 2009. It was the year I started therapy. It was the year I realized I really hated parts of my job. It was the year I went through a major depression that kept me out of work for 4 months.
BUT…..
It was a great year. A really good friend got married and we had a blast at the bachlorette party and the wedding. I made some really good friends that I didn’t expect to make this year. I found out who I can trust, and was surprised by who they were.
I went to some great blogging activities in 2009. I went to my first Avitaween. I went to my 2nd TequilaCon. I went to ReNYC.
I am almost done school so hopefully I will have a new job in the next few months.
Even though the year wasn’t great, It ended up being a pretty good time.
Happy Birthday Ren
Today is one of my favorite people’s birthday’s He is very old at 40 so no surprises
That was from ReNYC
Ren is probably one of the nicest guys in the world and anyone who met me knows how much I love him. Although not as much as his beautiful wife who I am very jealous of.
Have a super amazing birthday Ren. Love you lots and lots.
School Lunch: I always had
When I was little I brought my lunch to school. Always homemade in a brown paper lunch bag.
I always had a sandwich, usually corn beef or pastrami never peanut butter or tuna fish or anything like that. Always something from a deli. Corn beef on rye with mustard Or lean pastrami on rye. And they were big sandwiches piled high with meat.
I always had a fruit. An orange, an apple sometimes grapes or cherries.
I always had a cakey comestible. Sometimes store bought like hostess or cookies but usually homemade like cake or brownies or cookies
I always had a drink and this is where I was so cool No juice boxes (did they have juice boxes back then) but always a can of soda Cream or Black Cherry but never Coke or Pepsi
As I hit Junior High and High School I started to buy lunch because no cool kid had mommy make her lunch.
I look back and realize I was never the cool kid and I wish I had taken my mom’s lunches longer
Also how the hell did she have time to make a homemade lunch for 3 kids every day
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